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| So for Father's Day weekend, RJ decided that he wanted 2 be here with our baby and me. She's getting so big and I feel so blessed 2 be a mother! I'm finally getting 2 see her outside of scheduled supervised visits and that feels good. I know I can do better and I'm committed 2 continuing 2 do better so that Adrienne Jordin can grow up knowing how special, dear, and loved she is by both of her parents. All things associated with my addiction (the dude formerly known as Bubblehead) have been left behind. I don't want or need reminders of him bcuz it hurts 2 much 2 think abt him. No need 2 have reminders of pain when there's so much positivity 2 look 4ward 2.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY 2 ALL THE GOOD FATHERS OUT THERE! Even if ur not a biological father, if ur a real man who takes good care of his kids, grandkids, nieces n nephews, adopted or foster children, or even if ur a mentor or role model 4 children in ur community GOD BLESS U! & Thank u! Unfortunately my biological father walked out when we needed him most but my sister & I r blessed 2 have uncles who show us what REAL MEN should be like. && a special thank u 2 RJ 4 being a wonderful father 2 our daughter Adrienne. | | |
| Dear T, What happened 2 us? How did we go from being best friends 2 being enemies? Our love 4 the boys brought us closer, made us the "awesome 4some" as our auntie used 2 call us. But now we don't even talk nemore. All over some boys that we never were with and won't be with. I know I'm 2 blame 4 the things I said. And I apologized 2 the ones I owed apologies 2. Kandi has 4given me 4 the unkind words I said. AJ 4gave me b4 she died. Joy has 4given me. And I've 4given myself. But I need 4 u 2 see what ur doing and how it's hurting ppl. T, you're being so cruel 2 ppl who were there 4 u. She never turned her back on u, no matter what. Even when everyone told her not 2 trust u she was still there 4 u. And what have u done? Disrespected and degraded her all bcuz she has a friendship with some guy. So what? How does that make any difference in ur life? U could be friends with him 2 if u had just been real. But u didn't n that's ur own fault. U've lied, been dishonest and sneaky with everyone who loves u. Kandi didn't deserve that, AJ didn't deserve that, Joy didn't deserve that. Ur better than that T. I know u have good in u, u just need 2 let it out. I dunno if u ever wanna have kids but I am a mother now. As a mother I had 2 do some soul searching and realize that I have 2 be an example 4 my daughter. I need 2 live a life that I should be proud 4 my daughter 2 imitate. I don't want her trippin over some boy 2 the point that she can't follow her dreams. I don't want my daughter 2 think its ok 2 stab her friends in the back over a boy. I don't want her 2 think it's ok 2 step on everyone who really cares 4 u. So I had 2 change my ways. 4 her n 4 myself. It's time 4 u 2 do the same thing, T. I mean it. 4 urself, ur sister, n 4 us as friends. U've hurt ppl who love u, disrespected Adrienne's memory n made a fool of urself all over boys. Face it... Dustin is a fantasy. Yea he's a real person but u being with him is a fantasy. Kelly saving u 4rm urself is a fantasy. U have 2 face that as a reality. I had 2 face that me bein with Carnell is a fantasy. It was hard but I'm ok with it now. I'm truly ok with that bcuz I have friends n family who love me n they mean more than any boy ever could. U need 2 understand that ppl won't be so against u if u just change ur ways n stop being so sneaky n mean 2 everyone. Maybe even Kelly would be friends with u if u would stop being fake with him. But even if he doesn't u still have true friends who were there b4 we ever saw B5. Adrienne's spirit is still watching over us. But u just gotta find the good in u sis. I love u. I'm praying 4 u. | | |
| I'm sick of females who claim 2 be my friend only 2 slap me in the face. I'm sick of being reminded that even tho I love him with my whole heart and soul that he will never feel the same. I'm sick of being reminded that I'm "crazy". I'm sick of being here. I'm sick and tired! I'm ready 2 give up! | | |
| Biggest news... RJ and I found out we're havin a baby! We're both real excited. That means we're pushing up the wedding date cuz we wanna be married by the time the baby is born. Baby is due late January.
Videos I've peeped lately:
"Slumber Party" by OhSoKrispie... The song is kinda young 4 me but it's cute if u like that type of poppy song. The video is nice tho looks like they had a lot of fun making it. Watching the video will probly help ppl get more into the song. Myxx looked really cute and B5 looked good freestyle dancin at the end. Love how Kelly was dancin lol.
"Tell Me Tell Me" by Miki feat. Kelly B... I really don't like this song at all. Way 2 bubble gum and it doesn't show what she can really do vocally. Best part is Kel's rap and that can't even save this piece of pop fluff. The dancing seemed very sloppy. The outfits were cut and Quincy was a good choice 4 a love interest. Girls, be warned, only thing that makes this video worth watching are Q and Kel. Otherwise... no.
Watching AFV... funny stuff.
Bored and sleepy... bbl. | | |
| I'm over bein mad cuz I almost lost friends. They gotta see 4 themselves I guess. So I'm done. I warned em. All I can do is be there when she lets em down n I know she will. Even Mish saw the err of her ways n straightened up. N I still keep my eye on her... n she knows it.
So RJ n I are doin good. He has 2 go out of town again 4 work. I hate that he has 2 be away so much but he's makin BREAD so I won't complain. ;)
We haven't set a wedding date yet but he gave me the ROCK. I love my finger bein all icy lol. But what means more than the ICE is the LOVE behind it.
So I'm happy 2 see things r lookin up 4 my big sis n the guy she loves. DESPITE the other chick's attempt 2 mess it up. HAHA BITCH! Didn't work!
Goin out with Mish 2morrow night. Can't wait 4 her 2 get 2 DC 2nite!! | | |
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